I have been out today to attend the funeral of one of my friends in my building. It was a moment of despair and numbness for me. I really didnt knew how to react to this situation.
I tried to be calm for long time, but just lost control over my feeelings, when I saw directly into the eyes of my friend's mom who was desperately searching for her son in me. She just couldn't control her feelings nor did I.
But I was contrlling my friends mom and my myeslf, I strong observation just rocked me. I could just make out few of my friend's relative...his aunty, mausi, who were trying to expose their love for the dead one. They were trying their best to make a show of their love......a aunty who was crying with all her arms, was just spotted afterwards cracking jokes over latest episode of "kyunk saas bhi.....".
I was really analysing this situation at my end. I started corelating the things to myself. How can ur beloved ones behave so strange? Was it a funeral of my friend or was it a funeral of lost humaneship? I could just make it out it was a funeral of loss of sensivity towards feelings of others.
I was just praying to god " help me keep up my sensitiveness towards feelings of others as , it is the main value that I have to cherish all throughout my career in Civil Services"
